So I stumbled across this blog today. Somewhat accidentally [checking my e-mail in an address I barely use but keep so when I'm out of college I still have a "proper" e-mail address]. My new years resolutions are the same as they were before, and I don't think I ever completed them [I didn't even make them this year, and I know I forgot about the old ones as soon as I made them]. I still don't eat right [but I'm trying]. I am still addicted to caffeine [probably even more so than before]. I am still lazy [though I will admit that has improved quite a bit. I don't always leave things to the last minute anymore.] I still worry about things too much, and I don't always know how to make myself happy.
I'm not friends with M anymore because of a prom fiasco. I think I still alienate people, but then strive for their closeness. I am a walking contradiction and as much as I try to change that, sometimes I am too lazy to try.
Leave before you're left right?
I should not be living by the same philosophy that I lived by when I was 17. But acknowledging that I have to change that is half the battle right?
D left. I need to accept that and move on. [I have but sometimes it still nags at me. How people just change completely and cut off everyone from their past, but I guess she had her reasons.]
Just like I had my reasons for cutting off a friend this summer. Regrets. Better to forget them than to live with them I guess.
Or maybe, better to learn from them and forget them and then MOVE ON.
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