Tuesday, January 1, 2008

er... resolutions?

Every year I end up making a whole long list of resolutions that I will keep. The list usually ends up hidden in a notebook that I have stopped writing in or buried in files on my computer. I never keep my resolutions. Or if I do, I am unaware that I am keeping them. I am beginning to question what the point of making the resolutions is. Why on the new year? To give ourselves a sense of false hope that as soon as the clock strikes 12 we will become these new people who will exercise and eat right and give up the caffine and donate half our paychecks to animals and small children? Or that we will finally unleash that little stack on insecurities in our mind and conquer them all. This will be the year we finaly become the person we have always wanted to become! Yes! We have the power within us to be great!

But that never happens to us does it? At least it has never happened to me. But then again I have always lost my resolutions.

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So here is my list. If I keep it in my blog I will have no excuse for losing my resolutions and therefore no excuse for not keeping them. I will try to keep it small.

1) Eat better: no more drinking just coffee for breakfast. no more skipping lunch and just eating when I get home. Also, cut back on the fast food. McyD's at 9:30 shall not become a regular occurence. (Only when M comes over and there are no more oreoes and peanut butter in the house)
2) Get rid of laziness: this applies to all aspects of my life: school, work, college apps... especially school. And no more putting off stuff. Like that research paper. And DBQ. And Journalism articles. And I'll clean my room. Really, I will.
3) Getting over it: this applies to everything. In my personal life, professional life...etc. I will not hold out false hope for things that I know will not happen. I cannot put myself through that type of thing anymore. Not happening.
4) Do not do anything half-hearted: this, again, applies to everything. With my personal life, with things I don't want to do... in other words not faking it. Unless I absolutely have to ("Do you want to take out the trash, take the 500 lb. table to the stock room and wash the ceiling E?" "Sure K! Anything else I can do?")
5) Really, Really, try to be happy: I'm going to do things I want to do. I'm going to write more and not worry and not feel guilty. I'm going to try to write down one beautiful thing I notice every day. It will keep me sane.

There. Those seem reasonable right?

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