Tonight I was looking through my old computer files and came across IM conversations from 4,5,6 years ago. It was weird. I really don't like how I was back then. I was insecure, selfish, controlling, and a total bitch. It's amazing what we do to try to keep the people we love close to us. I really made people hate me.
We started watching Citizen Kane in journalism today. Mr. G came in and looked up at the screen then asked me which one (character on screen) I was. Everyone laughed (especially Ms. H... she laughed the most. probably because she thought it was true.) I waited a little while then said I was the one BEHIND the desk. She smiled. I hope she agrees.
But I have my doubts. That's got to be normal right? Even all the greats have their doubts, right?
I try my hardest to put up a confident front. I try to believe in myself as much as I can. It keeps getting harder. But I swear it, I'm trying.
The one behind the desk right?
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