Giving up??

I don't want to but I think I'm giving up the fight. We're going to be censored no matter what we do. They'll put pressure on Ms. H and she'll have no choice (just like now) but to listen. She has to. They employ her.
So where does that leave me?
The more articles I write the more they'll be rejected. The more of a fight I put up the more I put Ms. H and the paper in jeopardy. Neither of which I want to do. So I guess I'll just bite my tongue and write the articles I'm supposed to, forgoing my typical style which brands the articles "Els" even if my name wasn't on them. Instead I will write the monotone articles about how the world is a happy place and everyone loves and everyone and gee, isn't life swell? stuff.

Today in class I couldn't even work on my articles. I kept imagining the administration looking closely at every article (perhaps with a clipboard and checklist) and saying "yes, this can go in" or "no, she isn't talking about the school, it has to go" I'm used to my writing being subjected to criticism. I actually like have my writing looked at, grammatical errors fixed, and helpful suggestions on content made. But to have something I've written looked at solely on the basis of topic? It's ridiculous. I don't care if they don't like what I'm writing about: not everyone is going to agree to my opinions, I know that. I disagree with people on an everyday basis. They need to start judging based on quality of what is written, not the subject which is discussed. And I refuse to be dictated as to what will appear in a STUDENT RUN publication. They want an article about the volleyball team (even though we JUST ran one)? Write it themselves and maybe we'll put it in.

I started this blog to release my anger. Guess what?

It's not working.