Getting back a friend?

In a weird way things are getting better and worse at the same time. I tried to text my former friend again today. She didn't reply. I didn't expect her to but I'm still sad. I guess I hoped that a glimpse of that old D would shine through, the girl who came on vacation with my family, plottled fake drunk dials with, did my hair for my Sweet 16, and was basically the closest thing to a sister I ever had. Sure we disagreed, we disagreed a lot: friend's do that, I know. But we didn't stop speaking because of a fight, we just sort of stopped... I kept calling and she wouldn't return the calls. I guess that just happens sometimes. I know people change, I've seen it happen to other friends, but we always have had a common bond that has held us together. I guess she just moved on when I stayed the same. A lot of stuff has happened to me this year, probably completely different than what she's going/has gone through. I guess I just wish that she had been able to talk to me, and me to her. I feel bad for the past but there is not a lot I could change now. I sent her a text apologizing (maybe I did push her a little?) and she hasn't text back. It shouldn't make me sad but I guess maybe because it's around the holidays and such and graduation keeps getting closer... I always thought she would be one of those people I would be friends with when I was 88 years old and would call and be like "hey. remember that time at K's house that we were...."

Note: Just randomly decided to call D. We talked a little and it was nice. Hopefully we'll be able to become friends again. It would be nice.